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| I think i should be worried that it is the end of week 4 and i've done nothing much to supposedly study: i demand i sleep by 1am tonight (less than an hr to go) and wake up bright and chirpy tomorrow to a brand new week with less laptop and more study. And less shopping: how come my money fades away so quickly? Not enough paychecks ):
But much more improvement (: She'll probably never know how proud i am of her for being so strong because we're in similar situations, but she's a strong kid, and i really feel joy out of teaching her: i only hope she gets good enough grades to get to wherever she wants to be because a person with that kind of strength deserves to go far and not get worn down by life.
Been very tired very recently, i'm not so sure why, myself, but i know it has to stop because i'm not studying hard enough. Must do my new media readings, my deviance readings, my environment readings (haven't even started), my gem readings (never started that either) and my medical readings. Project for nm is in progress, i'm halfway through my share of surveying people but where do i find 30 year old people outside of church? Env debate.. Must email my team mates by next week argh ): We've wasted a week! I hate debates too. Gem project.. Why must things be so screwed up? Lalitha and i don't seem to have a group because the prof is so VAGUE in his instructions.. HOW HOW HOW? And my medical essay argh i forgot all about it.
I have no motivation towards school: hanging out in raffles hall makes me wonder everyday what the f am i doing in arts when i seem to be interested in everything else that everybody is taking. Should've tried for fac of science despite my gut feelings or pharmacy at least i wouldn't be so lost there, or feel so inadequate more than half the time. I've never been an arts person and i don't know who i was trying to kid when i applied to FASS.. And sociology is NOT interesting, the readings are so heavy and they make me depressed just looking at them. Must really stop looking at my laptop already (THOUGH there is this old navy dress i want that's finally been marked down in terms of price so i'm keeping an eye out for a spree that looks reliable).
Been buying much less clothes but the pile is still rewardingly big when i get home and i'm in the hugest deficit ever, why?!? I have no idea.
Rambles.
Must: pack for going back to hall tmr, ps tonight is my first sunday night at home (beams), figure out what to wear to school tmr (it's always this huge thing when i cannot figure out what to wear when i wake up), shoes!!, still need a pencil case, please donate one to me?, fisheye (:, opi silver nail polish woop, 2 weeks of discipleship to complete!
If there's a hole in your heart,
You gotta pull it together
It takes some courage to start,
But now it's better than ever
It takes a push and a shove
Somehow it's never enough
And it's alarming how quick you can forget that:
Nothing's bigger than love
Gdnight xanga (: Remind me to study tomorrow please. When i get to my readings.
10-12 NM lecture
12-2 Nothing: I MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST STUDY
2-4 Lunch with Suyin and Amanda (:
4-6 Haircutt
6-8 Hall dinner
8-whenever: STUDY. Must must must. | | |
| Today was a cool day, albeit tiring having woken up at 7am to be the first at breakfast hahaha
1. OG Lunch with Eug, Calista, Kristen, Wanyee and Lenon! -- I miss the og and i feel like i haven't heard YSL's nonsense in forever, kinda miss it.
2. Tuition with Abbie which was so fun because i essentially did nothing, in a good way. She's really mastering differentiation :D
3. Dinner with Debbie Lam. It was a really really good talk we had and i'm glad i met her? Plus i'm officially a fan of daily scoop: their coconut ice cream was delicious.
4. Raffles Hall Christian Fellowship CG. Much fun too, even though i was late i didn't miss much so it was nice to be there! Supper after that, hardly ate since i was still full from dinner though.
5. Ice cream party in Yuxuan and Xinya's room, i'm really so thankful for those two and their friendship with me, i think i'd die without them in hall, even though we're in different blocks.
Thank You God.
And Debbie put a thought in my head: serve God for God, not for yourself, and focus your relationship with Him more on Him, than on yourself. New target.
Home tomorrow after heading to campfire (: Goodnight all <3 | | |
| Living on my own, thinking of myself,
Castles in the sand, temporary wealth
Now the walls are falling down,
Now the storms are closing in
And here i am again:
Jesus hold me now, i need to feel You in this place
To know You're by my side, and hear Your voice tonight
Jesus hold me now, i long for Your embrace
I'm beat and broken down, i can't find my way out
Jesus hold me now, Jesus hold me now
Curse this morning sun, drags me into one more day
Of reaping what i've sown, of living with my shame
So welcome to my world, and the life that i have made
Where one day you're a prince, and the next day you're a slave
Alone, small hearted, and upset.
I need to feel You in this place ):
Just tired of disappointments/frustrations in life. ):
Jesus, Jesus at Your feet, there is nowhere else for me
Not serving life's trivialities, not serving my jealous heart, not serving for man's honour, not serving the world, but serving You. | | |
| Hello xanga, i feel like it's been really long since i was here. I'm finally home on a friday night, it's the first time since i moved t hall 3 weeks ago. My new opi nail polish has arrived -- barefoot in barcelona :D Next colour of choice: Miami beet.
Hall life has been extremely tiring but so much fun: totally don't regret hall on any level, and i've decided that this sem my tutorials will actually be more exciting than the lectures (it was the other way around for last sem) because the tutors are so funny. And i'm genuinely very tired right now but i swore i'd stand by for the hollyhoque launch and then i think i'll just crash. Then wake up to chase after my bible study again tomorrow haha.
Tomorrow is kind a churchy day for me, 1-3 discipleship 4-7 youth service. But i'm so happy that tomorrow's going to be a day for God, with God. (:
Goodnight one more hour to the hh launch because i really really want this pair of flats that they'll be launching!
"But i know i had the best day with you, today"
Don't forget to try the formspring i set up not too long ago! (: Leave a comment/ask me anything | | |
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I'm a Year 1 University student in Singapore, i love blogging and i love food more but i'm perpetually trying to lose weight. I'm self conscious, insecure and immensely self-critical but i'm sure we all pretty much are, at some point in our lives, whether we choose to say it or not.
My blog is one of my favourite places in the world and i post snippets of my life, stuff from my favourite tv shows, and very much random stuff, even bible verses here! I hope you enjoy reading it as much as i do writing it.
There's so much more to say about me and if you know me personally, you'd know what i mean. But the most important thing to know about me is that i'm a Christian, and i'm God's child. :)
Love, su :)
Other links you can find me at:
flickr.com/photos/slowspin
paint_onasign.livejournal.com
twitter.com/esiery
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